***I read this book in November and this post has gone unfinished since then. I thought I would finally finish and share with the last days of 2016 upon us. I hope it sheds insight into your own life as you reflect of this last year and plan with hope for 2017. Thank you friends for being a part of StoryboardC., I am eternally grateful for your readership and love. I pray that the NEW YEAR is the best yet to come for each and everyone of you!
I have never considered myself a Badass, historically I have played pretty safe in life. But, when I opened the pages of this glorious book of getting off your ass, visualizing, planning, jumping out of that safety net and doing the impossible with the I'm Possible (thanks to Audrey Hepburn for that quote) attitude. I realized I did have some pretty big Badass in me after all. Yes, I have taken the safe road many times, but now looking back I see how many more unknown leaps of faith I have taken with only God/Gut/Inner voice as my companion. I have pulled off some pretty wild feats of bravery or crazy risks that might be construed by loved ones... "What you are moving again and taking that raggedy old Volvo thousands of miles?" Yep, I did and I was scared shitless every time I hurled myself into these foreign endeavors. But, God had my sweet yet, Badass back each time. I trusted him and in turn he gave me all the necessary needs, wants and loves to pull it off. And I am here to tell you Now with no ounce of Doubt, God/the Universe has your back as well.
Jen Sincero's book could of not come into my own life at a more relevant time. I had just again pulled off another fateful fast one. Kicking my safe, albeit exciting existence to the curb. Hearing my Gut's perpetual promptings that it was time to go back home after spending nearly two years in Austin, Texas. I never regretted my time there, it was a necessary moment in my life to heal, discover what I wanted and needed out of this new life of mine after my Mom's and Step-father untimely passing and a Divorce. I needed to remember what fun was again, loosen up and learn that God takes us to places, people and things to Grow. Before I had moved to Austin I had floundered in fear and wondered was this it for me. Succumbing to yearning for what was gone and compromising for safety sakes. Yet, my little mundane life had its own healing merits, but I was itching from the inside out for something I couldn't pin down. Before I go any further... I needed that chapter in my life. It was a integral part of the process, but not the ending. A Major shake up was about to happen and I needed that time to be ready. Everything really Happens for a reason.
So, when I first visited Austin and felt the amazing welcome, love and Creativity starting to peek out again. I experienced enticing feeling I had forgotten in myself only awakened by the land of Misfits, crazy beautiful Austin. I knew I needed to be there and had no idea how the outcome would be. Once I got back home to Minnesota, my inner promptings would not shut up, "You need to be there." Over and over I heard it, though my intellect said otherwise. But, I made the decision and went. Quite honestly, it was the scariest thing I had done on my own. But, everything fell easily into place except when I would try to back out:) I finally gave in and listened to my Priest friend, "Cindy just go, if it doesn't work out you can always come home."
It didn't, but it did so much more for me. I have spent the last few months at home digesting the enormity of it's blessing. I had to go there to struggle in a whole new way. I had to pull back the layers of pain in a place where I was loved (Thank you my dear Austin Friends). I had to confront my past in a present that was miles away from here. I had to find who I was, not what others expected of me. I had to learn to truly listen to my inner voice and hearts desires. I had to accept help and Kindness of others (I was never good at that) and be reminded that I am never alone (nor are you). But, last but not least I had to go there to become the BADASS person I am here NOW. Enjoying GRATITUDE, OPTIMISM and Discovering self-love like never before.
Then the evening after work a few weeks ago, I walked into Barnes & Noble and "stumbled" upon a Bright yellow book on display in the Self-Help/Personal Growth section gut screaming at me, "Pick me, Pick me!". I didn't hesitate and You are a Badass: How to Stop Doubting your Greatness and Start Living an Awesome Life came home with me. I lived and Breathed every word in Jen Sincero's book for three days. I was on a spiritual A-Ha (and I am not talking about the band:) high for days after finishing. I even crashed with all the knowledge, taking a day to really let everything sink in. I took notes upon notes from all my highlighting in the book. My copy is so littered with a graffiti of thoughts. I would be embarrassed to loan it to anyone in its current state:) *Hey and excuse for all my friends to get their own copy after you read below my Five Favorite Take aways:
You are the Co-Creator of your own Life. God/The Universe* has lovingly bestowed on all of us Free-Will and that own unique will of ours combined with his (God/The Universe) is the perfect combination to get the impossible done. Obviously this subject I could go on forever about and many before me have. I find it so fascinating and actually not to complex, but it is a hard one for many. But, let me put it as simple as I can in a example... Let's say I want to write a book (Oh wait that is a good one:), I feel true deep passion about a certain subject and have for most of my life. So, after many years of sitting with the idea, I set out to do my research on said book. Soon after completing my research, I begin the writing process. It comes with such ease, unlike all my other attempts to write in the past. Throughout the whole process, I feel this great sense of purpose. My Gut keeps reiterating that with coincidences reminding me to stay focused, like chance meeting with my old English teacher in High School that always encouraged me to pursue writing. I also feel connected with God through prayer and asking for the book to be his work as much as mine. I visualize its success not in monetary (which by the way isn't a bad thing either anymore more on that in number Three), but making a positive impact on others. After completing the book, I begin to send the final draft out to numerous publishing houses. I feel hopeful despite the pouring in of rejection letters. I honestly expected and felt in my gut that would be a part of my journey. I also ask God/The Universe to help me weather the rejection and not give up hope. I then decide at this point, I have done my part to the best of my abilities and give the rest of the journey to God/The Universe to fulfill if it is his will. Then a little over month later, one Editor takes a chance on me. She says once she read the first page, she had a feeling that this book might help others. The synchronicity blows me away and that she sees what I had prayed and envisioned in her observations of my writings. I can't help feeling such gratitude for God/the Universe for taking his time to find the right person to publish my book and not giving up in the face of rejection. Then the book goes to printing soon after and then eventually goes to the shelves of bookstores. Readers fall in love with its message and it soon becomes a best-seller. I am then NOW living out my initial prayer/intention of helping others. Making me wholeheartedly acknowledge that Prayer, Gratitude and Co-Creating with God/The Universes does work. You might be thinking wow that example seems too good to be true, I know up until recently I too would of thought the same. But, Now I realize it does happen. Maybe not with me at this moment:) But, now I look for this does happen examples and if you need proof go stand in the best seller section of a bookstore and count all the successful published Authors (Including Jen Sincero:) that sat down, wrote and begged God to help them write the best book they could. So, see when you do bring to God your purest hearts desire with action, he will create with you:)
Rewire that Sub-Conscious (Beliefs) of yours. This was a big one for me. We all have beliefs that limit us. Some created by us, culture or by family that has been handed down by generations. Chapter 1 in Jen's book nails this with so many examples of how our Sub-conscious works and limits us. I know I have been bombarded with limitation issues my whole life and I am sure you as well. But, the one that first comes to mind for me is Happiness. Since childhood, I have always downplayed my naturally happy nature. Somewhere I got the Belief way back in the day that being happy wasn't cool. If I ever wanted to make a impact in this life of mine, especially when it came down to my creative adventures. I needed to be Serious, the Ernest Hemingway intense and drinking problem get shit done serious. But, now looking back that approach never felt right to me and clearly it has not created the most delightful outcomes for oh so serious writers and artists of the past as well. So, while reading this book my happy nature kept popping up to me like a light in the dark of my sub-consious. I needed to finally embrace that I am a happy Doris Day kind of girl and not that beguiling serious vixen type:) And Man everyday since then I have been rocking my own kind of happy (because we really are not just one thing) and my whole perspective has and is changing. So, truly this is amazing lesson in how rewiring our beliefs can bring so much change.
Money can be Good. I Think this was my hardest subject in this book. I grew up believing that money wasn't a good thing. It caused pain or longing for it. But, after reading Jen's thoughts on that mighty dollar, I found a shift in my perception. Money is Currency and Currency is Energy. What causes the Money Pain or Evil scenerio is not Money. But, the perceptions behind it. If one looks at it as creating positivity in life, a gift to do and be good. It is a blessing not a curse actually. It allows us to create a intentional life of abundance. Of course there is always responsibility with any kind of blessing. Including money.
We are Energy. This I know to be true... I learned this lesson in the most profound of ways from my Mother. The night she passed away. I had not left her side and even slept next to her. Earlier in the morning, I knew this was her last day and of course I was not truly ready for that moment. We never completely are, but I remember standing outside and begging God to give me the strength. He did and much more.
My Step-Father slept in his chair next her, my step Aunt in the chaise at the foot of her bed and I on the couch next to the Hospice Bed. We were all exhausted. I fell asleep with my hand on hers. It was the first deep sleep I had in nights and at three o'clock in the morning I woke from that sound sleep with my heart knowing it was time. Her breathing soon after became quietly labored. I whispered to her that I was here and it was OK now that she left. We would all be OK and that I loved her. I kept repeating it over and over. Then the room lit up with unseen exchange of Love and energy. Nothing I had felt ever in my life nor will probably again. Then she was gone with this surge of Energy.
I believe we each individually are a beautiful energy song placed on this earth for a unrepeatable reason of love and Purpose. We all need to know this:)
Love Yourself. You are Badass:) Seriously all jest aside, I know it is easier said than done. Especially in the throws of a difficult time in life. In the last few weeks personally, I went from confidently high as a kite to a girl with doubt again. I know it won't last, but it is a hurtful feeling to be going through a surprising repeat of what I felt confident that I left behind a couple years ago. I don't regret any moment or person despite how it hurts. I will always love unconditionally and accept my feelings for others knowing there is a two sides to every story. The difference from then to now is I love myself enough to not allow a loved ones mistakes or mine define the present or future. I am here in this moment for a reason and have faith that God will see me through this repeat lesson. He does this for everyone including YOU. So, Go on with your Badass self and Stop doubting your own Greatness and Start Living the Awesome Life you are meant too! *Go buy the book too:)